Another Day Another Dollar....

Well I am back to work, sadly, after a long weekend. I went up to New York to visit my sister and her family. It was a nice break to get away from RS and other family. The weekend wasn't great, but it wasn't bad either. It gave me time to think about what I really wanted. If I want to stay with my current boyfriend or not. I will admit that RS did text me quite a bit while I was away. But something I realized is that my feelings for the other one are still there, and I don't know what to do about them. I don't want to loose the friendship I have with him by exposing my feelings not knowing if he feels the same but I also don't want to live my life wondering what if? One thing I know for sure is that nothing can happen between him and I until RS is out of the picture. Because first off, I am not a cheater, and second off it is not fair to either of them or myself. So the question still remains what should I do. My answer would be easy if my current boyfriend would just step it up and man up and treat me like I should be treated. Because there is no doubt that I love him and want to be with him. But he makes it impossible to do so acting they way he is acting. I have given my last and final ultimatium, that he has 1 week to do things to make it better and to meet my needs. 1 week, this is my last and final attempt to salvage whatever is left of our shattered relationship. I hope he accepts what I said and does something to start making up for it but I guess only time will tell.
It is also killing me to not know how the other one is feeling, if I knew how he felt then my decision would also be easier, not that I would jump into things with him right away but knowing I have a chance and to do something about it would make the world of a difference. It would give me that kick to break things off with RS and maybe it would make RS realize what he lost and make him realize it did not have to come to this, if he would of just stepped it up.....
I really hate my current status of not knowing, not knowing anything and not knowing what is best for me. I think deep down I know but I can't seem to find the courage to do it.....
It is just a sad sad situation.......