Letter to RS, my boyfriend

So as promised here is my email to RS.... (Email is in blue)
(read previous post to understand better)
The things said in this letter to him needed to be said, reason being is last week I was ready to leave him, ready to pack up my stuff and move on, I even went to look at apartments, but he sucked me back in making me believe that he wanted to make it work that he wanted to make things better, So what did I do I invested myself in the relationship again, put my all when I had nothing to give and then last night - SURPRISE! He is confused and not sure.... Well I guess I will have my answers tonight. Any advice you can give I would greatly appreciate it, but just be careful to not pour too much salt on an already open wound. Thanks again!

Hey,
Sorry to write an email but I just have to get some things off my chest and it can't wait. I barely slept last night because of our conversation last night.
I meant what I said when I said "Make a decision and stand by it" And that is what I am asking of you - Make a decision that you want to be with me and stand by it, by doing everything you can to make it better and to make it work.
I am not asking for a ring right now, God knows I would not even except it from you at this point but what I am asking for is the possibility of it, commitment and hard work to get to that point.
I love you with all my heart and I want this relationship to work - I will do everything in my power to make it work. But what I can not deal with is the uncertainty that comes along with it. That one day you will wake up in the morning and just be done when I am putting so much in to the relationship to make it work. For instance I firmly believed that this past week and a half we were working on things and then last night you drop the bomb "I am confused" "I wanted to marry you" WANTED - CONFUSED!
Talk about being jerked around - that is exactly what you did, jerk me around.
Then we have the my whole birthday thing - that I can not even talk about because it is so hurtful - part of me hopes that when you are feeling better you will do something for me to make it up - but then there is the reality of it and the reality that you will most likely do nothing to make up for it and I will just have to deal with it and let it go. Just like how you ate my peanut butter chick and I have asked and asked for you to replace it and still nothing.
Well I am making you aware of it now, I am not letting it go until you make up for it (my birthday). Birthdays are big with me and if you can not except that then tell me now - I am sick of being jerked around emotionally compromising my own beliefs, wants and needs.
I want a decision from you tonight. I want to know if you want to make this relationship work and if you want to meet my needs and wants. Because if you can not give me a firm YES to both of those questions I have a right to know so I can collect what is left of me and move on. This is not an ultimatum or threat - It is giving me the respect I deserve in honestly answering the questions I need to have answered to stay in this relationship. I hope and pray deep down that I get the answers I want but I have prepared myself for whatever you may say.
I will see you when I get home,
M