Where to Start?

Ok - It is Friday and my famous saying, "It is hard to have a bad day on Friday" is not working today.....
It is crazy here at work - busy wise and there are some gap of communication that make it hard to do my job. I am putting in way too many hours because there is not enough time in the day to do everything.
I am dealing with a sick father, not to mention I got some scary medical news about myself and am waiting for the results. I say Farewell to Ryan - thank God!!! That is a huge weight off my shoulders - at least my heart is healing :) But lately it has been hard to stay positive with so many things going on. 
Also to add to the mix - I think I have a stalker, no joke.... I never dated the dude, he is married but he religiously follows me on facebook and txts my phone like crazyeeeee....  I am going to have to put my foot down, I do not mess with taken men, and he has made it very hard to just be friends....
With the stalker aside, I don't want a relationship right now, I am enjoying finding myself and dating along the way. It's funny really because, deep down I do want a relationship and I do want to find that lasting love, but I honestly feel like I lost so much of myself by being with Ryan that it is going to take some time to find my passions, likes, needs and wants again. I can't beat myself up over it but I do regret giving him my whole self. Because ultimatlely he rejected me, he did not want me, and he hurt me more than words could ever describe. But a very important thing I learned out of it all!!!  I will NEVER allow myself to get lost or wrapped up in a man.  I need to keep my indepence and confidence up and be with someone who brings the best out in me and I really have faith I will find it some day :)  I konw what unconditional love it, and I know how it feels to give it, now I am just waiting for someone to give it back in return but having fun along the way. Ryan was not capable of uncoinditional love... I know he is my X and saying mean things about him is the nicest thing to do, but it is the God awful truth. Ryan is a selfish/ stubborn man who I lost all hope in. I don't even recognize him anymore, and I don't want to..... ADIOS!!! My life would of been so much better without him plowing through it... Ok, so if you havn't already picked up on it, I am having a BAD day....
But I am looking forward to the weekend, I have some fun stuff planned and I am hoping the weather stays nice!!!  Be kind to everyone and be safe - M