I have not been blogging lately because it seems like there is not enough time to do everything and then when I do find some time I just want to crash. Work has been taking up all my time and has put me in a horrible mood. I am not fun to be around nor do I want to be around anyone. R.S. and I are doing okay, not good, not bad, just there, it is almost like we don't have time to be anything, he is stressed with school, I am stressed with work and by the time we find time to be together we are usually sleeping or crabbing about school or work. I feel sort of bad because I have not had time to see my family let alone the couple friends I have.... It feels like my job is consuming my life and my attitude and I HATE THAT! Well I could go into a whole tangent about how I hate this and that but I just don't have the energy too and when it comes down to it - I need my job to survive, to pay bills etc... But I am at the point where I am asking myself. At what cost?? Don't get me wrong I am grateful I have a job but at this point, my life is not worth all the stress, drama, crap, and lack of a life just to pay the bills and say "At least I have a job" ..... "sigh" "sigh" Life is too short to be living for a job.... And a job I hate for that matter - I don't even like any of the people in my department, actually I hate them..... GRRR....
"sigh" Back to the shit hole....
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