Introduction

Good Morning,

This is my first time blogging but I have always found that getting your thoughts out is the best way to figure things out. So bare with me I do not have the best grammar and am a really bad speller. I also tend to write as if I am having a conversation.

Let me tell you a little about myself. I am 26 years old and the youngest of 5. There is 15 years between my oldest sibling and myself. I guess in a way you could say that I am the glue that holds the family together. We have always been a very close family and are always there for each other no matter what but at times we all bump heads and it always seems that I am the mediator to try and get everyone on the same page again. I don't mind the role but I must admit at times it is very exhausting and frustrating.

Something else that is important in my life is my boyfriend we have been dating for almost 3 years and have been living together for 2 years. I love him dearly but we have hit a rut in our relationship and I just don't know what to do anymore. I am at the point where I can not imagine my life without him but I can't imagine my life with him either. It is a hard place to be and it is constantly dragging me down. His lack of follow through and lack of meeting my needs has damaged the relationship, I fear beyond repair.
I feel I have done almost everything I can to repair this rut. We have both read the "5 Love Languages" even though I don't think he has finished it like he says he has and it took him almost a year to complete it. I feel I implemented the book and filled his love tank but I can not say the same for him. I feel he flipped through the book not taking to heart anything in it and he has not made an effort to fill my love tank. I have also made the effort to go to conseling, meeting with a social worker so we could get the right fit etc... and he agreed to go (barely though, huffing and puffing about it) but he has not mentioned anything about it since I brought it up to him, like when he is available to go, if he would pay half etc. Everything is always up to me... I feel why should I give a 110% when I am not getting anything in return. It is hard to do something when it is not reciporcated back...
In my boyfriends defense he is going to school full time and is extremely stressed out but in my opinion that is no exuse for the way he has been acting and the way he has been treating me. I mean come on I can not even remember the last time we shared a kiss or an intimate momment... But that is a whole other can of worms that I don't want to get into right now.

Well that is it for now - I hope you stay tuned to my blogs and give any comments and or advice.
Thank you in advacne for everyones support and I look forward to a fun blogging experience :)