Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Stolen Bike - Life in General SUCKS!

Okay - I am having a really bad week, no actually year....
I just got my a new bike last Friday and wouldn't you know, it got stolen yesterday.
So pretty much my life royally sucks! My relationship is in shambles, I hate my job, my sister just had a stroke, my dad is not feeling well and to just put the cherry on top of everything I am developing feelings for someone else who I believe does not reciprocate the same feelings, oh and did I mention I have a boyfriend that I am desperately trying to make things work with(this is a whole other blog in itself)....
But enough bitching - I should be grateful for many many things... But it is so hard to be grateful when you are felling so down about so many things, it can almost consume you.... I am trying not to let it consume me but it is.
This whole bike thing was kind of the straw that broke the camels back. My boyfriend actually laughed about it, had no compassion, NOTHING..... Red flag number 2 (make that a million red flags) He actually had the audacity to laugh and laugh and continue to laugh when he could see that I was very distressed and on the verge of tears..... Please someone tell me why I am still with him? Not to mention I prepped dinner last night when I got home from work. I then had a teaching commitment at 6:30 - which I have every Monday - then I go to workout - which I also do every Monday, Wed and Friday. My schedule is very predictable basically always the same - do you know that, that asshole went and made my dinner knowing very well I would not be home till after 9pm. My wonderful fresh veggie stir fry was a big soggy mess by the time I was able to eat it. I seriously could of screamed. He is probably one of the most selfish people I have ever met - 100% asshole in my book(not just because of this, there have been many other facotors that lead me to my 100% asshole conclusion) - and it is sad because he was not always like this - He was the ideal boyfriend, always thinking about me, my needs my wants, what makes me happy and I would do the same for him - Now it is like I am stuck in this horrible nightmare too stuck to go anywhere or do anything about it. Almost as if I am paralyzed... HELP! Okay well enough for now i just had to get a few things off my chest! Thanks for listening.

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